The Secret of Life

It has been quiet on my end of the building so I've been listening to some of my cds while I work, which I LOVE to do but don't get the chance that often.  I have a lot of homemade mixed cds...all country music and was listening to one this afternoon remembering each song as it came on going, "oh yea, I forgot I put this on there".  Faith Hill's "The Secret of Life" came on and I was listening to it...I love this song.  The secret of life can be so many different things...its whatever it is for you, you get to make that decision.  Its no one thing particular..its your thing.  For me, I don't think its just one thing, its a bunch of little things...like listening to music while I work.  I'm not going to start listing all the secrets for me because I probably couldn't end the list!  Anyway, just thought I would share the lyrics with you to Faith's song, and maybe you might want to share with me one of your secrets to life...

The Secret of Life

Couple of guys sittin' around drinkin'
Down at the Starlight Bar
One of 'em says, "You know I've been thinking"
Other one says, "That won't get you too far"
He says, "This is your life, and welcome to it
It's just workin' and drinkin' and dreams
Ad on TV says 'Just Do It'
Hell if I know what that means"


The secret of life is a good cup of coffee
The secret of life is keep your eye on the ball
The secret of life is a beautiful woman
And Marilyn stares down from the barroom wall


"You and me, we're just a couple of zeros
Just a couple of down-and-outs
But movie stars and football heroes
What have they got to be unhappy about?"
So they turn to the bartender, "Sam, what do you think?
What's the key that unlocks that door?"
Sam don't say nothin', just wipes off the bar
And he pours them a couple more


'Cause the secret of life is in Sam's martinis
The secret of life is in Marilyn's eyes
The secret of life is in Monday Night Football
Rolling Stones records and Mom's apple pie


Sam looks up from his Sunday paper
Says, "Boys, you're on the wrong track
The secret of life is there ain't no secret
And you don't get your money back"

Hey


The secret of life is gettin' up early
The secret of life is stayin' up late
The secret of life is try not to hurry
But don't wait
Don't wait


The secret of life is a good cup of coffee
The secret of life is keep your eye on the ball
The secret of life is to find the right woman
The secret of life is nothin' at all
Oh, it's nothin' at all

The secret of life


Couple of guys sittin' around drinkin'
Down at the Starlight Bar
One of 'em says, "You know I've been thinking"
Other one says, "That won't get you too far"
"That won't get you too far"

Monkey & Bug

I took this sweet picture of my babies last weekend.  I will admit that the main reason I took it was because the dress Bella is wearing is one that I wore when I was little and it was made by my Grandma Berger!  She made dresses for my sister and I all the time when we were little.  This is one that I hung on to for Bella.  She looked so sweet in this dress.  She looks like a little girl in dresses. I know you are probably saying, "well she is a little girl"...but there is a difference in the way she acts when she has a dress on...like she knows it and she is a prissy little thing.  It is the cutest thing!  She must get it from me because I feel different when I have a dress on.  Don't you?  Just something about it makes me feel like a pretty girl.  :)   

And then we have my oh so handsome boy sitting over there.  Folks, let me tell you this is the sweetest, kindest young man you will ever want to know.  I am doing my darndest to make sure he stays this way.  He warms my heart every single day and makes me smile and laugh all the time.  He's gonna make a good husband some day!

Plain Simple Truth

I've been thinking a lot, about everything...my kids, the house, packing, where we're going to live, what needs to be done, how long it will take the house to sell, what to fix for dinner, what the kids need and/or want, what I need and/or want, how to be happy again, how to be alone again and the plain simple truth.  The plain simple truth is people scare me.  I'm afraid of people...always have been.  I don't like crowds and I really don't like being somewhere by myself with a bunch of people I don't know.  TERRIFIES ME.  I know what you're thinking and no, I'm fine at the grocery store, shopping, stuff like that.  But in a social scene...oh my goodness!  I'm a mess and I come off as a snob.  I'm not a snob--far from!  Quite frankly, I just don't think I'm good enough to be in other people's company.  That's the way I think, that's the way I feel about myself.  I'm not good enough for you.  I simply don't really know how to talk to people.  Its an awkward thing for me.  It is different once you get to know someone and find that commonality between you but until that happens...holy moly, I'm lost!  Its a confidence thing and that is something that I have always struggled with and that has always been hard for me.  I don't ask questions because I'm afraid of being made fun of, I don't talk because I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing or not making sense and being made fun of.  This is something that I am trying to work on but its really hard.  So how do you go from being the quiet, shy type (for 38 years) to someone who is not afraid of people?  How does that happen? Is it possibly?        

Today

I have mixed emotions today.  My divorce was final this morning.  The most surprising thing to me today is that I have not cried.  I am relieved.  I am sad.  I am not happy.  But I'm good.  I'm ready to start the next step in my life with my two precious babies.  I can continue the process of moving on.  Once our house sells, I think that will be the last piece off my shoulders, then the kids and I can start our new life.  What a journey it has been!  A journey that has been nothing but awful and unexpected.  But it has made me stronger and is continually teaching me.  I am going to leave this post with a quote I came across in a newsletter sent to me after my son died.  I keep it with me always.  While becoming bitter and giving up may sound appealing on my really dark days, I have refused to let it happen, and I will continue to refuse. 

"Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up.  They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be."

Charles "Tremendous" Jones