Wednesday, May 30, 2018

I Got In!!

I have no idea how or why it happened, but it did.  I like to think its a sign that I need to blog again, or maybe not.  Signs can mean so many different things.  Its all in your own interpretation.

At any rate, I'm here blogging about nothing again and it feels pretty darn good.  While on my hiatus, I thought a lot about whether I wanted to continue blogging.  If I were able to access this one again, do I continue with it or do I start fresh?  Or do I give it up altogether.  I discovered that I really missed writing. I loved getting my thoughts out there, even if I were the only one reading them.  This blog has been therapeutic in so many ways. I also liked that I could document moments with my kids the best.  Having said all that, I'm still not sure if I want to continue this blog or start a new one.  I'm torn with that so if there are any readers out there, please give me your thoughts.  So many things to think about.

There are a lot of other blogs I read and I get so many ideas from them sharing with all of us.  I want to do that too but I just don't know if I want to put myself out there anymore.  So much negativity everywhere that sometimes its just better to keep to yourself rather than draw attention.  I'm still on Facebook, but even that doesn't see as much from me as before.  I post occasionally and I share other posts but I really have kind of stepped back from it all.  Everyone is so sensitive and some days I just get tired of it all.  I don't want to walk on egg shells and I feel like I've been doing that a lot.  I really felt it before the new year started so I retreated to my family.  The two people who mean the most to me and who I should focus on, my children.  And even that has people wondering what's up.  I have to do what I think is best for me and my children.  Everyone has their own (what I like to call) "methods of madness".  It may not be everyone else's methods but they are yours, and it works for you.   

I have rambled enough. As you can see, I still can't make decisions easily, my thoughts are still all over the place and I still ramble about the same things, just in different ways.  Ha! 

I hope you are having a great week




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