SO GLAD ITS OVER!!
This Spring Break was just horrible. Started off bad, got horribly bad and then began to get better. It did end on a good note but I sure am glad to be done with it. For many reasons I'm not going to go into details on what made it so bad but know that me and my babies are all okay and all is right in the world again. :)
We had two showings on the house last week. No feedback on the second but hoping its good. So ready for this house to be sold. I think I have mentioned that a time or two before. Its just time!
Even though Spring Break was crappy, I am doing much better than I was a week ago. I'm in a better place and feeling a lot better. Gonna do my darndest not to let the demons get me down again.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
ugh
You are a tough cookie.
You need to get out more.
Quit sitting at home.
You only live once.
These are statements that recently have been said to me. The last few days have been hard for me. Nothing has changed, nothing has happened....I'm just down. Actually that's a lie...I'm not down...I'm truly a mess. I have spent most of this weekend in tears when I'm alone. I guess it comes and goes but I wish with all my heart that it would go away....and stay gone.
I'm missing my mom something fierce so maybe that's it? I could really use one of her hugs right now and for her to tell me to quit being funny. Everything always seemed better after a hug from mom.
This entire weekend I have constantly asked myself...what happened to you? What happened to you!?! Who is this pitiful person? Why have you let her creep into your life? Send her the hell away....and find Missy again.
I'm trying but I need to try harder.
You need to get out more.
Quit sitting at home.
You only live once.
These are statements that recently have been said to me. The last few days have been hard for me. Nothing has changed, nothing has happened....I'm just down. Actually that's a lie...I'm not down...I'm truly a mess. I have spent most of this weekend in tears when I'm alone. I guess it comes and goes but I wish with all my heart that it would go away....and stay gone.
I'm missing my mom something fierce so maybe that's it? I could really use one of her hugs right now and for her to tell me to quit being funny. Everything always seemed better after a hug from mom.
This entire weekend I have constantly asked myself...what happened to you? What happened to you!?! Who is this pitiful person? Why have you let her creep into your life? Send her the hell away....and find Missy again.
I'm trying but I need to try harder.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Wedding Pics
I stole borrowed these pictures from my new step-brother's FB page...look how happy daddy and Lena are!! Doesn't that just make you smile?
We were all having such a good time that we never did take a big family picture, something we all wish we had done. Maybe one day we'll all be together again and can make that happen. I think it would be great to have.
The wedding was beautiful and I think everyone had a wonderful time visiting, eating and dancing. I know I did. My brother even twirled me around the dance floor, I got in a few steps with daddy and my daugter. Good times indeed!
My kids will be with their dad this weekend. I have a list of things I need and/or want to do but have no idea where to start. A weekend that I don't really have any scheduled plans for. I can do anything I want...just should be some things on my list. Guess I'll figure it out soon enough.
Have a great weekend!!
Here is a picture of Lena at the house before the wedding. So pretty!!!
Lena with her sons Eric and Andy...
And me with my new cousin...Amye Jo. Amye and I have been friends for years!
Two good-looking girls right there!
We were all having such a good time that we never did take a big family picture, something we all wish we had done. Maybe one day we'll all be together again and can make that happen. I think it would be great to have.
The wedding was beautiful and I think everyone had a wonderful time visiting, eating and dancing. I know I did. My brother even twirled me around the dance floor, I got in a few steps with daddy and my daugter. Good times indeed!
My kids will be with their dad this weekend. I have a list of things I need and/or want to do but have no idea where to start. A weekend that I don't really have any scheduled plans for. I can do anything I want...just should be some things on my list. Guess I'll figure it out soon enough.
Have a great weekend!!
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Belated Birthday Wishes & A Very Special Day
I need to send out additional belated birthday wishes to the bestest sister any girl could ever have. We got to recently spend some good sister time together and I think it was much needed for both of us. This sister of mine is always there for me through everything. We laugh, cry and fight together, although I can't remember that last time we had a fight. Guess we're getting wiser. She's the best and I love her so very much! Cheers to you sis!
Remember that very special day I mentioned in my last post? Well its today. Today my daddy is getting married!! And in case you were wondering I did find a very special dress for this very special day. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm worried I will fall apart later today because even though I'm happy for daddy and Lena and I'm totally okay with them getting married, its still hard. There's still that part of me that feels weird about it, a part that says "but what about Mom?" I've been having a lot of "holy shit, my daddy is getting married" moments. Moments where I can't breathe and pinch myself to see if this is all real. But even in all those moments, I am so happy my daddy has found someone. I'm happy he will not be alone anymore. They have so much fun together and you can see their happiness in their faces every time they are together. Cheers to them!! Welcome to our crazy family Lena!!
Remember that very special day I mentioned in my last post? Well its today. Today my daddy is getting married!! And in case you were wondering I did find a very special dress for this very special day. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm worried I will fall apart later today because even though I'm happy for daddy and Lena and I'm totally okay with them getting married, its still hard. There's still that part of me that feels weird about it, a part that says "but what about Mom?" I've been having a lot of "holy shit, my daddy is getting married" moments. Moments where I can't breathe and pinch myself to see if this is all real. But even in all those moments, I am so happy my daddy has found someone. I'm happy he will not be alone anymore. They have so much fun together and you can see their happiness in their faces every time they are together. Cheers to them!! Welcome to our crazy family Lena!!
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