Official Teenager In My House

GASP!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe this handsome young man is a teenager. 
 

Where in the heck has the time gone?!?  I guarantee you it happened when I blinked...and I try so very hard not to blink.  This sweet boy young man took his sweet time arriving 13 years ago.  We were talking about it last night...he told me I had made such a good home for him in my belly he didn't want to leave.  So sweet. And he really is a sweet kid.  A good kid.  He's an awesome big brother and pretty cool friend to have.  His heart is so big and full of love, couldn't ask for someone for caring.  He loves to play golf, shoot the hoops, toss a football, play Xbox, shoot his gun, fish and is learning about paintball thanks to his buds Jordan and McGwire.  He is a crafty little stinker and loves to learn how to do new things.  His taste in foods is starting to come around and I see him willing to try more new things.  Again, at his own pace, but he gives it a whirl every now and then.  Loves to BBQ with his Uncle Tony and cook in the kitchen...whittle wood with Uncle Mike and dig in the garden with his cousins.  And he STILL calls me mommy, gives me hugs and kisses when I need them most and will snuggle with me from time to time.

I really do love this kid more than my luggage!

Never Easy

This week never gets easier and I wish it would because I am always a roller coaster of emotions the entire time.  I can feel the anxiety building up each and every year.  Still have moments I can't breathe and I cry at the drop of a hat because I miss you so much.  Heaven is the lucky one but mommy sure wishes she could have one last day with you.  I can still smell you and remember what it was like to hold and rock you.  9 years Jace...and it still hurts as much as it did the day I said good-bye.

I Inspire...really?

I inspire people.  Well at least two.  Second time in a matter of weeks I have heard this.  Both times brought me to tears because I quite honestly don't know what I do to inspire anyone.

I was told this morning its my attitude.  Always postive.  Always taking the high road no matter what pile of shit has been dealt on my plate.  Never the bitch. 

If only they knew how hard it is sometimes.  How there are days I'd rather shut everyone and everything out and just be in my own world.  No worries.  But I don't.  I saddle up and hang on even when its by a thread.

And try like hell to remember to be graceful.

Marilyn Inspired

Today's inspiration is brought to you by Marilyn Monroe. 

I came across this quote on Pinterest today...

"So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

And I do have plenty to smile about.  Need to remember to relax more, have fun and enjoy the ride.  Not let so many nasty things bring me down.   Trying to please everyone takes its toll on someone who is a people pleaser and likes to keep everyone happy.  At some point in my life, I need to let that go, realizing and understanding, its just not possible all the time.