Never Easy

This week never gets easier and I wish it would because I am always a roller coaster of emotions the entire time.  I can feel the anxiety building up each and every year.  Still have moments I can't breathe and I cry at the drop of a hat because I miss you so much.  Heaven is the lucky one but mommy sure wishes she could have one last day with you.  I can still smell you and remember what it was like to hold and rock you.  9 years Jace...and it still hurts as much as it did the day I said good-bye.