Believe

Believe is my word for 2011.

These are just a few things I will work on this year...

Believe things will only get better.
Believe my house will sell.
Believe I really am doing a good job with my children.
Believe I can survive being a single parent.
Believe things don't always have to be perfect.
Believe I can keep moving forward.
Believe in myself.

This list will continue to grow but the the last item is my main reason for choosing believe.  I have to continue to find ways to believe in myself again because it has faded to much of nothing.  Divorce does strange things to you.  You feel a wide range of emotions through it all.  At one time I thought acceptance would be the hardest step for me but it ended up coming easily. The doubts I have in myself have been the hardest to deal with.  I can never remember a time when I have felt this pitiful about myself.  I can't seem to shake it and I don't like it.  I'm hoping with my goals of leaving all of the bad in 2010 and busting down the door in 2011 with a new attitude and a new me, just maybe I can begin to believe in myself again.

Leaving It Behind

I have been having a really tough time lately. So much negativity from people, so many things said that shouldn't even be spoken by others but it is...and it makes my spirit sad. And my spirit was really good, but its been shaken again and it makes more piss and vinegar rear its ugly head.  I have only tomorrow left in this blasted year.  A year that was filled with so much disappointment, sadness, truth, loneliness, loss and survival...and those are only a few of the highlights. I'm ready to leave all the piss and vinegar in 2010 and start fresh in 2011.  No looking back, only forward.

I talk all the time how my children get me through my rough patches but I have to tell you,  I have some of the best family and friends in my life as well.  And to all of you, I thank you for all your love, support and encouragement. Without you I would not have been able to get through some of my darkest days.

Thankful

Have I told you lately how much I love and adore these babies?

My heart fills with so much love when I see them or think of them.  I can't imagine my life without them.  I am grateful for these babies every single day.  They keep me going and make me smile when life throws me a curve ball...and they keep me from striking out! 

Holly Jolly Christmas

From our house to yours...